Author:
velocitygrassPairing: John Sheppard/Rodney McKay
Rating: PG
Warnings/Content notice: None that I'm aware of
Word count: 217
Summary: He just accepts that there are certain things in life that he will never have.
Hoping
John isn't sure when he stops hoping. Maybe it's when he admits to himself that there is no right woman out there for him because he's gay. Maybe it's when he finds the right man but he's not for John because he's straight. Maybe it's when he realizes that there's nothing he can do to stop loving Rodney and at the same time nothing he can do to actually be with him.
The strange thing is, he's okay with that. He just accepts that there are certain things in life that he will never have. He's not unhappy. He loves his job, his team and his home. He's got Rodney's friendship. He's even got Rodney's love, if not entirely the way he wants it. All in all it's not a bad life to lead. It's pretty damn good actually.
It's years later, many years, when Rodney divorces for the second time and moves into John's house that John realizes that he might have been wrong.
He never truly stopped hoping.
Because when one day Rodney takes his hand and begins three sentences and stops himself before eventually pulling John close enough to show him what he means, John closes the distance between them, feeling like he's finally arrived where he's been heading—sometimes stumbling—all his life.